the wastebasket is a writer's best friend.

What can I tell you that I haven’t already said?

Nothing.

My life is at a stand still. Never moving forward. Always staying in the same spot.

I have nothing new to share with you, or be excited about.

Everyday I sit in the same room I have had since I was seven. Fading pink walls that rattle when the wind is just a little too strong. Slanted floors. Peeling paint. Dust and cobwebs cover every corner. This is what my life is. This is what I’m stuck in, with no way out.

I have no goals.
I have no plans.
I have no future.

I have nothing to look forward too.

I just sit here, day after day. I watch bad television online. I read horrible books. Pop cans and food wrappers cover my floor. It’s a sad life, and not one I would have pictured for myself.

I have no job. I have no education. I have no life.
I don’t have what I want. I don’t get what I ask for. I don’t have what I’ve worked for.
I have nothing.

I have lived 24 years and I have nothing to show for it. Nothing.

I have nothing new to tell you. Nothing extraordinary to share with you. No life changing ideas or goals or dreams.

It’s just me. Its always been just me.
Nothing special.

Hello! It has only been, like 2 months since I was last on here. But hey, what can I say? Not a whole lot actually. After I started working in November and all of December, I got really fraekin busy and tired. Like tired all the time kind of tired. I was so dead I didn’t know what to do with myself. It sucked.

It’s been so long since I have written anything, I miss it a lot. I have written a couple sort of interesting things on the 750words.com site. I do that every day. I think I’m on like day, 55 or something. So that is better then nothing. I try to keep that up, because at least it was something.

But! Yesterday was the beginning of my break from writing. I wrote a whole page and a half of stuff for my story Luko. I was so happy with myself and I have a pretty good scene coming up too I think. So that is a bonus. I also made a sketch of one of the main locations in the story as well. So I can better visualize what the hell is going on half the time. haha.

I am going to write a little bit more now, and probably more tomorrow morning while I am babysitting. That seems to be a great time to write. While the kid is sleeping and after he heads to school. It’s perfect.

Day 30 - Share a link to either your NaNo profile or a location on the internet where your story can be found. If someone offered to beta read for you, would you be willing to do the same for them during the subsequent editing process?

I would be willing to let someone read it when it is done. It is currently not done yet, even as I am so close to 50,000 words. When it is ready to be read I will share it to be read.

http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/participants/shahna

and i get pizza for dinner. how awesome!

I have probably written about 10,000 words in the last three days. I am blowing my own mind!